LETTER TO MY DAD & MY BROTHER


                                LETTER  TO  MY  DAD  & MY  BROTHER 

                                      
Hi dad much has changed since you left , some I can’t even  have words to describe , most of it have destroyed me perfectly from the inside leaving me broken  and lost of words.dad since  you left I have never had a  moment  between us .I normally stare at your grave when we travel up country most part of it I only travel when bad things happens  because am not up country  such a guy from long ago, I would stand at a distance wish it was me it could have be me and not you or brother .most of the time I find myself thinking of a lot of things , thoughts crossing all over my mind that it ends up leaving me gazing totally blank  of  thoughts  to a point  where I would think am loosing it, if I was in a conversation with  someone I would  just find myself quite that only a call out of my name would bring me back to my tracks.

Am sorry was not a perfect child growing up, I was always the villain of the family little did I know I was making you guys suffer over stupid things I use to do, now am a grown up and looking back to my past am not happy, tell my brother that sorry for all I did and hope that he will forgive in this life before I meet you guys.

With me I still have your beautiful memories  with me and don’t think they will ever  escape me  plus the last memory I have of you guys ,  many things have changed over the past years and I have gown with the changes that come with years and still growing , I pray every day to be that person whom  you always wanted me to be , I want to follow in you  footsteps  dad I want to be  self spoken person  but ever smiling  to show everyone that nothing  was wrong  and everything is well even when they are not just to keep  people out of my business and out of my life.

Am happy the way I am , am happy in the state  am in  and what I do , I have learn a lot  from my past life and  the current one and still learning more each day. You two people were the greatest warriors I have ever had, you made me realize just how much life was important without chaos in it. The  type of legacy you left behind is one of  kind dad but the enemy within won’t let go of my fears it almost feels like a supernatural  being inside me waiting to strike back in silence  bursting out my reflection into  the twilight  zone .

Dear brother hope  that you are well , I know you see us each and every day  and we do think of you and dad a lot especially me , how is life over there , how is everyone  are they friendly  only you can answer that question brother . How is dad I know you guys probably see each other every other day and it is you guys with help from God you have been protecting us thanks to that guys. Well I guess this is the end of my letter but not the end of me communicating to you guys hopefully we will see one another again if not in this life then in the afterlife where you are .

I would like to meet you one day and celebrate us  as a family once again , if only God didn’t love you that much we would be still that one big happy family. This is a letter to both of you  and my your soul keep on dancing in the spiritual world for us and our happiness  back here in the material world or world of pain , suffering and demise , where the only thing that matter is how rich is someone or  competition on human race  which only end up getting most of people loosing their lives.

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  1. Unknown31 May 2019 at 09:24

    I miss them too,,, especially our brother,,, i miss those days when we went that place (
    dufo mpararo)may both of them rest in peace until we meet again.

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